| Location | London |
| Age | 18 years |
| Cause of Death | Suicide |
| Date of Birth | 15/04/1990 |
| Date of Death | 28/08/2008 |
| Visitors | 2,033 since 22/01/2009 |
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Liam, you were so much more than a brother to me. You were my soul mate and my best friend. I wrote you a poem and a letter. I love you so much, I wish you could have spoken to me.
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Christmas Time
This is the first Christmas without you
I feel so alone, it’s unreal
I know I should learn to let go
I just can’t help the way I feel
Your laughter filled our hearts last year
But now it’s just an empty space
A vivid reminder of what we have lost
And that noone could replace
You were my brother and my best friend
And that’s what you’ll always be
But why did you do it, Liam?
You left us all, left your family
It took so long to come to terms with
It was real, you were dead
Why didn’t you talk to me? I understand
The things that can go through your head
You know I struggle with depression
And since you’ve been gone it’s got bad
I can’t describe how much it affected me
Only, you were the best friend I had
Mum and Dad nearly lost me too that Summer
In fact, there were quite a few
Times I put myself in hospital
But how would they feel if they lost me too?
I still remember the exact day
And how much we all cried
When we found that note in your pocket
Explaining how you had died
Christmas is so hard without you
Because I remember when you were here
Now instead of being joyful and comforting
It’s a sad and lonely time of year
Of course we still have each other
But really it’s not the same
We’re always thinking of you
I’m still looking for someone to blame
Having many brothers and sisters left
Doesn’t make up for the fact that you’re gone
I love you and I’ll miss you this Christmas
And every year, after this one.
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Dear Liam,
You know what I remember? How you cried so much when I went into hospital and told me that you would ALWAYS be there for me through my depression. And there was noone else I would have preferred to say it. Then, at the time the most recent photo I have of us was taken, we all went on holiday. I remember staying on the beach til late with you. You were asking me about suicide, I thought you were just curious. You told me you loved me, and gave me your necklace. You asked me what the easiest way to lose someone through suicide would be. I said that no way would be easy, but I said if they were hit by a car it wouldn't be so bad because at least you could think that it wasn't entirely their fault. But you know what? I changed my mind, it doesn't make anything easier.
In August 2008 the police turned up at our front door to report that you had been involved in a car crash. You were seriously injured but being hit didn't kill you - it was the overdose you'd taken before. You don't know how much I blamed myself, Liam. We didn't know there was anything wrong, there were no signs. I've blamed myself ever since. Mum and Dad were too busy with me and my depression to pay you the attention you clearly needed. I've never told anyone what happened on the beach that day, because it hurts to think about it. I should have known, I should have been able to stop it. I am so sorry Liam.
We only knew when we came and saw you in hospital, where we found the note in your trouser pocket. Saying how you loved us all and how sorry you were. And then weeks later, I found my own personal note from you - hidden inbetween some photographs in my room. I haven't shown that note to anyone.
I miss playing xbox with you all night, bodyboarding with you on the beach, playing board games and going out having a good time. I miss my big brother and how protective he was of me. It hurt so much when you went. I tried so many times to join you and had to go through more inpatient treatment and medications. I hate all the songs that remind me of you. I hate the smell of Lynx. I hated it at Christmas when we had an empty space at the table. I hate it when I'm asked how many brothers and sisters I have. Everything reminds me of you.
I wear the necklace every single day. I haven't ever taken it off, since the day you gave it to me. I still have the tshirt you lent me in my drawer, I haven't been able to wash it yet. I have our photographs all over my bedroom walls, your texts saved in my phone. All to try and forget that you're gone and to forget that the last time I spoke to you, I lent out of my window and shouted, 'You better buy me them 2 bottles of Coke on the way home'. I don't care about the Coke anymore Liam, I love you and I miss you. I don't blame you one bit for what you did. You will always be my big brother.
RIP Liam
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIAM
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Birthday Remembrance
Thinking of you on your birthday Liam
But that is nothing new
For no day dawns and no day ends
Without a thought of you.
We cannot send a birthday card,
Your hand we cannot touch,
But God will take our greetings
To the one we love so much.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIAM
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bigs hugs from me to you and your family
and friends that you miss you ever day but
in our hearts forever you will not be forgotin
all my love hugs and xxxx from me Sylvie
mommy of Samantha Belanger and
Granddaughter of Albert and Marie-Jeanne
Belanger take care bye for now.
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**ღ**ღ**ღ**ღ**ღ**ღ*THOSE WE LOVE **ღ**ღ**ღ**ღ
Sadness has come.
It has spread darkness over happiness we once knew.
So now we will hold our hart in two.
However life will bloom again.
We will not give up we will smile
Flowers will come
Blue skys appear
Life will be beautifull
Even though you are not here
For when we meet you
Whenever and wherever that may be
We can say we have lived
and i know you will smile and say
I am proud of thee.
GONE TOO SOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LIKE A COMET,,,,,,BLAZING CROSS THE EVENING SKY,
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GONE TOO SOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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LIKE A RAINBOW,FADING IN THE COMING NIGHT,
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GONE TOO SOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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SHINING,SPARKLING,AND SPLENDIDLY BRIGHT.
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HERE ONE DAY.,,.GONE ONE NIGHT.
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GONE TOO SOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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LIKE A CLOTH OF SUNLIGHT ON A CLOUDY AFTERNOON.
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GONE TOO SOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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LIKE A CASTLE BUILT UPON A SANDY BEACH.
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GONE TOO SOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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LIKE A PERFECT LOVELY FLOWER, THAT IS
JUST BEYOND YOU"RE REACH.
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GONE TOO SOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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BORN TO LIVE IN SHEER DELIGHT,
HERE ONE DAY,GONE BY NIGHT.
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GONE TOO SOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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LIKE A SUNSET DAZZLED BY THE RISING MOON.
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GONE TOO SOON.
[A MICHAEL JACKSONG SONG].R.I.P..
R.I.P.ANGEL.XXXX
Angel's Wings You Wear♥ღ♥
The day you left broke our hearts
and the tears fell like rain,
but knowing that you now have wings
helps to ease the pain.
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We know now when the snow falls
it is Angel dust from you
and when we see a shooting star
our Angel just passed through.
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The rain drops do not make us sad
for they are not tears,
but sprinkles of love falling down,
our Angel again is near.
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The winter cold has even changed,
Jack Frost no longer exists,
it's now a visit from our Angel
and he's left a special gift.
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You also visit in the night,
your wings flutter with grace,
we know now when we awaken
that an Angel has kissed our face.
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When the days are warm and bright
and the sun shines from above,
we feel the warmth wrap around us,
you've given an Angel hug.
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You are with us at all times,
every day and night,
you try to end the pain we have
and the tears that we still cry.
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Though Heaven is your home now
and Angel wings you wear,
you stay close to those you love,
until they join you there.
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FLY HIGH ANGEL FLY
Remember me in quiet days
While raindrops whisper on your pane.
But in your memories have no grief,
Let just the joy we knew remain.
Remember me when evening stars
Look down on you with steadfast eyes.
Remember if once you wake
To catch a glimpse of red sunrise.
And when your thoughts do turn to me,
Know that I would not have you cry.
But live for me and laugh for me,
When you are happy, so am I.
Remember an old joke we shared;
Remember me when spring walks by.
Think once of me when you are glad
And while you live, in your heart I shall abide.
My heart goes out to you I lost my sister Teresa to Suicide on 12/19/08.
Don't weep at my grave,
For I am not there,
I've a date with a butterfly
To dance in the air.
I'll be singing in the sunshine,
Wild and free,
Playing tag with the wind,
While I'm waiting for thee.
I send you love and understanding, I lost my bro to suicide on the 19/09/08.
The pain is terrible but we must take comfort that they are in a better place and not suffering. xxxxx
RIP LIAM
A golden heart stopped beating,
Two smiling eyes at rest,
God broke your familys hearts to prove to them,
He only takes the best.
Sweet dreams beautiful angel.xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
liam
rest now hope you are at peace give my love to your family i no how thay are hurting as i have 2 sons in heven that took there lives
love vicky gray
mum of michael and brian saddler
So Sorry
I'm so sorry for your loss and I understand how you are feeling.
My stepson Gary (who I love as my son) committed suicide 2 days before your brother on 26/8/08. We love and miss him so much as I know you also do for Liam. The feelings of guilt, loss, and sometimes anger can be overwhelming at times can't they?
Please try to stay strong even when you feel that you can't. Your brother sounds like a great young man, and he obviously loved you very much.
Sending love
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